Friday, July 22, 2016

Fighting Back Against The Darkside/Bacteria Combo In A Nutshell. 2

I have not posted for 6 months. I thank the readers for keeping this blog alive. The truth is that this blog is being written from the battlefield. I can post only when I am able to. For the last 10 years, I have been under attack by EMFs from the apartment below me. 2 years ago, the darksider upgraded to a microwave weapon. These weapons are illegal. Microwaves are distinctive because it heats up the flesh, which burns awful bad. I have no help in this town: not family (who refuse to move), not Police (who say they are not trained for this), not even the EPA (which claims to deal only with ionizing radiation). Even the landlord wants me out of this country, so he allied with the Afro-american culprit. The townsfolk know but they are pretending that it is a good thing, or they question my integrity. No-one is doing anything about it. 'People-cooking' is what is being done on me by the darksiders in this area. This site gives you an insight into the brutal torture that is involved. Not unsurprisingly, I developed medical conditions like high blood pressure, diabetes, palpitations, rashes and insomnia. And the pain and burning gets really excruciating, especially in the heat of summer! There are other medical issues like leaky gut, sundry abdominal lumps, thinning hair, gaunt features, varicose veins and other symptoms of  accelerated aging, and of a body falling to pieces. Nothing works to block it. Nutritional therapies cannot deal with the consequences of this 24/7 microwave radiation which goes as high as 44 milli-Gauss. Palpitations can lead to stroke, heart attack and death. Even the attending physicians dispute the existence of such a weapon, and the reality of my experiences. Maybe, this is how it will end. I have been tweaking my entries to try to give you the nitty-gritty of this blog. I am not short of material but there is great difficulty in accessing the mental tranquility necessary for this kind of writing. Keep reading and keep experimenting. Change cannot be had except if you try. No magical methods of salvation exists. If you don't try, how will you know...or grow! I will keep trying to find an answer to my problem. If anyone has a solution please let me know. Evil rules, and they are showing me who is boss in a world where God seems to be an absentee landlord! Then they say "Hard luck", as if they are innocent bystanders!

Without alkalising the body, any fightback against the darkside/bacteria combo will fail. To destroy the bacteria, viruses and fungi that make up 90% of the body's cells, one can temporarily take the alkalinity of the body up to just above 8.0. Stay there for a couple days then come back down to 7.4 and always remain slightly alkaline. Here is how a cancer cure was achieved. Dr Mark Sircus has exposed the connections between pH and cell voltages. Alkaline cells have millivolts of current to give but in the acidic mode accept electricity from the outside. Cells change from electron donors to electron stealers, as alkalinity changes to acidity. This change can be experienced if one lives in an environment of geopathic radiation or weak EMFs. Instead of giving off energy, the body accepts energy. Strong EMFs cannot be fought back against by pH adjustment. Acid cells become congested because the calcium that is brought in from the bones and teeth, to restore alkalinity, cannot return to the bones and teeth unless vitamins K2, A, and D3 are there to conduct the process. This clogging of the cells and the interference with cellular processes makes bacteria more welcome. Both oxygen and antioxidant levels stay at low levels because they are used up in fighting free radicals generated under acid conditions. In alkaline conditions, both oxygen and anti-oxidants are in abundant supply. Bad bacteria act like receptors in the body for the energies and influences of the external darkside. This is why the darkness outside is able to affect you. This is why they focus on activities, pleasures and enjoyments which facilitate bacterial growth, the enlargement of bacterial colonies, and the transmission of bacteria. Increased bacterial numbers results in greater collective power, within and outside. Acidic pH thus creates the conditions within the body for a heightened level of external energy influence. Darkside attacks (energy, voices etc) are initially very troublesome. The soul is confronted by a threat which it cannot understand, or disable, or fight back against. There are no pointers existing to mark the way out of this dilemma with no name. This darkside modus operandi has come to be considered part of normal human existence. One adapts by putting on a behavioral mask which would hopefully deceive the darkside spies and the all-seeing eye. All the darksiders' ability to impinge on you with their powers and abilities depends on the alkalinity of the body, the nature of the bacteria within you, and the strength of the darkside entity found within. Bacteria is a term used here to generally mean bacteria, viruses, fungi and any other microscopic life-forms which inhabit the body. Reducing the bacterial load is do-able. But earth is replete with bacteria and they will re-inhabit the body. Aerobic bacteria are our allies. Use these good bacteria to keep the bad anerobic bacteria under control. Being bacteria-free is possible too, if one uses anti-bacterial therapies regularly. You do feel very harmonious when the bad bacterial load is gone. The consciousness interferences, like the constant mental chatter, thirsts and emotions (eg hate, passion, desire etc) stop, and are replaced by a cool and serene head. Destroy the bad bacteria, install good bacterial allies within, and feed the cells. Then, the darksiders have nothing but physical force and managerial control of the economy and society as weapons.

Feeding the cell what it needs must be self-done because no other agency puts this as the goal of food and drink. Chefs in restaurants and delis do not do this for you. 'What the cells need' was not a factor in the creation of foods that are market-oriented, customary, traditional or ethnic. Taste, tradition, appearance of foods and exoticity are the prime considerations of those who create meals for you, whether it is vendors or family. You have to break away from that kind of nutrition and utilise the findings of nutritional science to create new menus which get the job of feeding the cells done. You have to source your materials, supplements, your tools and equipment. You have to plan your meals ahead of time, and source your ingredients. You have to prepare your meals knowing fully that the ingredients and raw materials you have zealously sourced will have no deleterious effects on your body. You have to research the nutritional knowledge. You have to research the foods available by visiting the shops. After creating your menus of food and supplements, and using them, you can guage if your body responds in the direction of greater health and harmony. Your body will respond with change. If it does not change as much as expected,  adjust your ingredients and supplements accordingly. Self-created nutritional menus are an ongoing experiment which is enhanced as you acquire more information from research and experimentation. So, you cannot afford to go blindly into your nutritional experimentation. You have to question the usefulness of everything involved in meal preparation. You cannot use microwave ovens as your heat source for those foods that need cooking. It destroys the nutrients. Wood is one of the best heat sources but it is impractical in the modern urban world. Natural gas and electricity are the more popular heat sources. You cannot use aluminum utensils because it leaches out into the food. Even iron pots seem to be hazardous. Glass, stainless steel and enameled pots are the best. Non-stick surfaces or teflon-coated pots are hazardous to your health. Wooden or stainless steel spoons are okay. Aluminum foil is not suitable for wrapping food, while plastic containers contain BPH. One cannot kill the foods by overcooking. This is what happens when you bake foodstuffs. Light sauteing or stir fry is the better method. If the food has to be cooked, like meat or potatoes, then you can't help it. One usually uses oils to cook with. Coconut oil is the best. Olive oil is not good for high heat frying. Other oils like canola oil, soybean oil and vegetable oils have problems associated with them. Even butter or ghee is good for cooking with. Table salt is not good. Try sea salt instead. Curry is excellent for cooking with. The turmeric in curry works synergistically with black pepper and ginger. One has to use seasonings to cook with. Most of the culinary herbs help the digestive process and the body as a whole eg onions, garlic, cayenne, basil, thyme, etc. The problem is that while onion and ginger remains the same when cooked, herbs with volatile components get degraded by excessive heat. So one has to add the herbs when the food is almost done. The problem with other people's cooking is that they often use tap water, aluminum utensils and bad oils, while putting in seasonings/condiments/additives etc that contain things not good for health eg msg, food dyes and preservatives. Only when you do it yourself can you control what goes into your body.

You have to unlearn, and shelve, much of what you understand about food in order to embrace any new kind of feeding. You cannot keep saying you need meat, rice, eggs, milk, etc. You cannot keep eating what's on the menu eg rice and beans, cheese sandwiches, fried rice and fried chicken, pizza etc. You need nutrients not food! You cannot keep believing that you eat 'better' or more healthy when you go out to lunch or dinner at your favorite restaurant. You cannot continue to believe that commercial fare, ethnic or traditional foods adequately takes care of your nutritional needs. You cannot take your dietary tips from radio, TV or other mainstream media. You have start from scratch and devise a new feeding plan based on what the cells in your body need. You do not need meat, you need amino acids. There are a lot of problems associated with meat consumption, so you would want to get into safer alternatives that supply amino acids. Grass-fed whey protein that is cold-processed seems to be the best alternative. Yet, meat supplies essential, conditionally essential and non-essential amino acids. In addition, non-muscular meat supplies specific amino acids, gelatin and substances that build and repair joints and ligaments. Other sources of complete proteins are hempseed, milk and cottage cheese. One has to research in order to choose the least troublesome sources! You need carbs but not in the excessive amounts often used. They are not nutrient-dense foods, and have almost nothing to contribute to the cells except sugar. Wheat is a bad choice because of it being usually refined, because of its gluten content, because wheat crops are probably sprayed with glyphosate to facilitate uniform drying, because it is bleached with alloxan which is linked to the destruction of the beta cells in the pancreas, and because it is an acidic food. Complex carbs are recommended because the sugar production is staggered unlike in the case of simple or refined carbs. Wheat, white potatoes and rice are equally damaging to health. There are substitutes like spelt, teff, amaranth, buckwheat and wild rice. Tubers, squash, plantains, green bananas and fruits supply carbs too. One has to use nutrient-dense foods otherwise one is consuming food that fills but does not feed the cells. One has to look at the nutrients in the food items one consumes and choose those with the maximum range of nutrients. This takes research. The food menus one usually consumes were not created with this requirement in mind. Dr Josh Axe has an excellent website in which he gives the nutritional benefits of various foods. In preparing meals based on nutrient necessity, nutrient complementarity and nutrient density, one is eliminating fillers and useless foods, while feeding the cells with what they need for optimum functioning. Cooking may not be necessary if you want the maximum nutrition from foods. Raw-fooders have this argument in their favor. Of course, they admit the need for meat-eaters to cook meat, and the need for stir-frying or sauteing certain veggies. Making smoothies and juicing are sure ways of getting the best nutrition from plants and fruits. Smoothies, however, gives you too much indigestible fiber. Digestive enzymes could remedy this. Blenders and vertical juicers do produce excessive heat which degrades the nutrients. An augur-type juicer is your best bet for getting the maximum nutrition from plants, veggies and fruits. Plant juices supply amino acids, fatty acids, minerals, carbs, enzymes, essential oils and vitamins. They are fresh, potent and easily absorbable. The problem is that the amounts are small compared to the minimum daily requirement, and the full range of nutrients will not be present in any single plant source. Watercress, kale and collard greens are the most nutrient-dense plants used in smoothies or in juicing, Supplements are therefore necessary.

The human body needs good fats and oils, vitamins, macro and trace minerals, enzymes and other substances that enhance the wellness of the body eg oxygen, detoxifiers, decalcifiers, specific herbal compounds (eg quercitin from onions, allicin from garlic, curcumin from turmeric etc), anti-bacterials, anti-oxidants, bioflavonoids, collagen etc etc. Research will fill in the blind spots in your nutritional knowledge, Dr Axe, Dr Mercola, Greenmedinfo and Dr Mark Sircus are excellent sites for acquiring knowledge. There are many books on the subjects of nutrition and herbs, juicing and healing therapies by leading researchers. Phyllis A Balch is one of the leading authors in nutritional and herbal healing. The internet, however, is a goldmine of information. We have been lied to about cholesterol. Writers have debunked the Cholesterol Fraud or the Cholesterol Hoax.  Some claim that the problem is homocysteine. The Pauling Therapy site reveals the following:
"Many investigators contributed to demonstrating that it is lipoprotein(a) that is deposited in plaques, not merely LDL, but lipoprotein(a), or Lp(a) for short. If you have more than 20 mg/dl in the blood it begins to deposit plaques and causes atherosclerosis. The question then is: What causes Lp(a) to stick to the wall of the artery and form these plaques?

"Countless biochemists and chemists discovered what in the wall of the artery causes Lp(a) to adhere and form atherosclerotic plaques and ultimately lead to heart disease, strokes, and peripheral arterial disease. The answer is that there is a particular amino acid in a protein in the wall of the artery - lysine - which is one of the twenty amino acids that binds the Lp(a) and causes atherosclerotic plaques to develop. I THINK IT IS A VERY IMPORTANT DISCOVERY"

"Knowing that lysyl residues are what causes Lp(a) to stick to the wall of the artery and form atherosclerotic plaques, any physical chemist would say at once that to prevent that put the amino acid lysine in the blood to a greater extent than it is normally. You need lysine, it is essential, you have to get about 1 gram a day to keep in protein balance, but we can take lysine, pure lysine, a perfectly non toxic substance as supplements, which puts extra lysine molecules in the blood. They enter into competition with the lysyl residues on the wall of arteries and accordingly count to prevent Lp(a) from being deposited, or even will work to pull it loose and destroy atherosclerotic plaques."

- Linus Pauling (From the Linus Pauling Video on Heart Disease, 1992)
Dr Pauling used high doses of Vitamin C and Lysine to reverse coronary heart disease in as little as 30 days. Proline and Vitamin K2 have been added to the regimen. Read Dr Mercola's take on the subject here. It seems that the powers-that-be do not want Dr Pauling's Therapy in their collection of recommended treatments. There are other substances which dissolve plaque like EDTA and serrapeptidase (or serrapeptase). Heavy metals are removed by EDTA, chorella and liquid zeolite. So, one must include good oils (eg flaxseed oil, fish or krill oil) olive oil, coconut oil) and fats in one's nutritional menus. These provide cell nutrients, energy and the raw materials for cellular construction. One should also stay away from questionable oils and fats eg hydrogenated oils, vegetable oils, transfats and animal fats. Canola oil, touted as the best for high heat frying, is not a good oil. Read more here, here and here. Here's a listing of essential minerals that you need. You do need mineral supplements. Two of the most complete sources of minerals are shilajit and seaweeds. Sea salt also contains minerals. A multi-vitamin supplement may not supply enough of each vitamin for your needs. Neither will your diet, even if you do juicing and smoothies. Individual vitamins from organic sources must be purchased. Vitamins are either water soluble or fat soluble. They include A, B, C, D, E and K. Vitamin K2 is important in plaque reduction since it sends the calcium to the bones and teeth. It must be used with Vitamins A and D. Vitamin K2 Mk 4 seems to be the more effective version compared to Vitamin K2 Mk 7. There is an abundance of literature online about anti-oxidants, detoxifiers, and other therapeutic substances from plants or other sources. Dr Edward Shook has written some very educational books giving you a look at the useful compounds in herbs and common food items. He had great things to say about Almonds. Worth the expense! Basically, nutrition is your responsibility. It is up to you to educate yourself and take care of your nutritional life. Taste, tradition and the market system will leave you mal-nourished! There are doctors who specialise in nutritional research. Use their knowledge!

Souls must get back to their own conciousness. This can only be done by elimination of any competing consciousness within the body. The darkside and its bacterial workers are the competing consciousness within. Civilisation has under-estimated the consciousness power of this team. The soul is the size of a thumb according to Swami Sivananda. The bacteria in the body weigh up to 4 pounds and they have consciousness. The soul is smaller in size. Soul's natural state is one of attention being perfectly internalised yet aware of the external environment, and the tasks that need to be accomplished there. The presence of a powerful darkside/bacteria combo within the body means that this perfect balance is hijacked into externalised consciousness only. It was discovered that meditation is the activity which obstructs this runaway externalisation of attention by temporarily blocking out the objects and preoccupations that fuel this externalisation. But one always backslides because the colonisers within have not been dealt with. They do re-assert. Some have achieved great peace by including breathing exercises (pranayam), physical culture (hatha yoga) and fasting or rigid diet control to the menu. Desire for food grows weak with breathing, meditation, exercises and fasting. This is a blow to the darkside/bacteria combo which depends on food to multiply, and for pleasure. But, ill-health steps in at some point in time because the cells are not being fed what they need. The backsliding or move back to an external-mostly consciousness is the work of the darkside/bacteria combo reinstating its old habits. The soul is naturally meditative, and won't relate unnecessarily with the outside world, and not without good and proper cause. The excessive externalisation into the world is always caused by the darkside within and the 90% of cells in the body that are bacterial. The human body (and other bodies) seems to be the best possible tool for the attainment of the goals of darksides and bacterial colonies. The predatory darkside/bacterial nature can be seen in human behavior. We live amongst bacteria in the world, and in the body. Bacteria are the most populous living thing. They eat and degrade much of what is on earth, including our bodies. Bacterial colonies in the body are very powerful. The consciousnesses that exist within do not belong to the original cells of the body but to the soul living in the head, and to the colonising darkside/bacteria combo living amidst the original body-cells. The darkside society's pre-occupation with "action" and "speed" is simply the darkside/bacteria consortia implementing their external-only lifestyle to pre-empt the soul from using its body for its purposes. The soul's poise is one of internal focus even while dealing with worldly tasks. The darksiders like to pretend they understand this by calling mental preoccupations as being "up" and physical action as being "down". What they cannot understand is that the soul can shuttle between knowledge (up) and action (down) in milliseconds! The soul produces knowedge-infused action not cunning action or pleasure-driven action. The darkside/bacteria combo is the force to be fought and defeated, in order to be free within. Meditation helps the battle, but conscious indulgence in this is made necessary only because of the foreign presence within the body. The unafflicted soul is naturally meditative. Meditation is not the major tool in the spiritual battle, and it is spiritual practice only because of its help in weakening the darkside/bacteria combo by cutting off the external stimuli that fuel the activity of that combo. Meditation also re-energises the consciousness but this energy flows as bliss naturally once the colonisers/blockers are dealt with. Knowledge meditation, such as in reading and mentation/introspection, is what the real meditation is about: it is this which the soul uses to understand and chart it's earthly journey. The other re-centering kind of meditation is necessary only because of the exigencies created by the intrusive colonisation of the darkside/bacteria consciousness in the body. Breathing exercises, physical culture, feeding the cells, destroying bad bacteria and alkalising the body are core practices in defeating the darkside/bacteria combo within. These are the practices which save the spirit....not prayer, not worship, not rituals, not temples and places of worship, not bearded Gurus, not any other Kriyas or or secret techniques.

So-called spiritual teachers have missed the key spiritual practice in the search for salvation or liberation for the soul. Without it, there will be no salvation in this life. And to make up for this knowledge deficiency, they say that their techniques will give you salvation after death or it will attract the grace of God who is the one who gives salvation. They postponed the achievement of salvation from while you are alive, to after you're dead just to hide the wrongness of their formulas. The chief task everyone has is to cut down the enemy within while enhancing the power of the soul. This way, souls can govern and use their bodies without competition from within. This way, souls can unfold their potential without millstones to weigh them down. This way souls grow and unfold their qualities and potentials while alive. The body is not wasted in accumulating, desire-gratifications and in other darkside-directed life activities. One accepts mortality and the transience of the body. The soul evolves and acquires knowledge of earth. This knowledge and higher evolutionary level travels onwards after death! The darkside/bacteria combo is the enemy within. Bacteria are the foot soldiers of the darkside. The task becomes that of not feeding the bacterial cells that make up 90% of the body's cells. Though one can destroy all the bacteria, it is convenient to use good bacterial allies to destroy the bad bacteria. The alkaline state is inimical to the existence of bad bacteria. The body's cells are to be fed with what is needed. Without doing these things, the soul will have no salvation while alive, no matter what the other techniques used are! The darkside's ego easily fakes spiritual achievement. The intrusions of the darkside/bacteria combo into the consciousness, and into the functioning of the body,  leads to a derailment of the souls methodology for living in freedom. To have their way, the darkside/bacteria combo pre-empts the way of the soul. The poor soul is born into this state of affairs and does not know how it is really supposed to be. Almost all the teachings available can be labeled 'disinfo'. Life is spent being on the roads most traveled. Life is spent in trying this or that while being caught in the system's chains of earn and spend, of acquiring basic needs using banknotes, and of cavorting to whatever rhythms required by the laws and the State. The soul must become conscious of its experiences of derailment, before it can seek out and detect the problem that needs to be solved. While the material dance is a happy one, no problem will be known to exist except of how to dance 'better'. Often, one has to be shocked out of materialism by calamity. Avid students do not need the calamities thrust on them by the darksiders. Avid students are already awake and darkside evil is meant to retard them. If enlightenment from intuition or from external sources is not forthcoming, then the soul has to self-enlighten or stay asleep. In a world mostly populated by darksiders, such enlightenment is not to be found easily. Without the knowledge of the problem and of how to fix it, solutions for coping eg meditation, worship, asanas etc become standard spiritual practice. But these practices create the situation of living with the problem by adjusting to it. The darkside/bacteria combo must be removed because their very presence causes everything to go awry!

The vast majority of the people on earth are darkside. Of course, the darksiders employ strategies to effect this result. Civilisation is a soul-derailment experience made to look like it is the normal mode for 'human beings' in the world. Thank the elites for that! Good or soul people are shut out completely. That mis-direction assures a total ignorance of the existence of the darkside/bacteria combo in the body, and that it should be known and fought. This calamitous condition is presented as the way things are supposed to be. It is like everyone is limping and walking because of thorns in their feet. But they never consider an investigation of what is causing the limp because they are searching for that special style of limping that will take away the limping.....let the thorns stay. Almost everyone is living a derailed life because they have no idea of what real soul living is like, or of how to get there. The presence of the darkside/bacteria combo has derailed lives because people are not taught that they must be fought or how to go about that fight. Not fighting them within has caused them to assume the reins of command in the body. In the outside world few are fighting the darksiders because they do not know how to stop the snake-power which darksiders use to attack. It is your bacterial cells and the resident darkside which is the energy transmission link! The bacteria/darkside combo is fed by this elite-created civilisation while souls are starved or misdirected. Religion is mis-direction created by past elites. The elites are evil and have converted everyone to their nature. The challenge of the soul over the centuries has been physical survival, in addition to the challenge of fighting back against the external  darkside. One reason why the ranks of the good have declined is that no-one recognised the key roles of the possessions within (bacteria and darksides) in blocking the salvation of the soul while it's body is alive. The good have been caught in cul-de-sacs created by lies, without a methodology for creating more good people. Darksiders have their systems of force and cunning with which to increase their ranks. If you fight the darkside/bacteria combo within directly, victory is assured. Victory within automatically means victory outside.....but then the darksiders will fight you to reverse this victory!

Unless you clear out the bad bacteria, the battle with the darkside within will go on and on. No matter what psychological or mental or intellectual techniques you use against your darkside, it will just keep bouncing back up to bother your life. Willpower must be used if one does not have the knowledge of how the internal world operates, and of how to weaken the darkside. No matter how many times you tell the dark side to 'begone satan', it does not listen to your commands. It plays hide and seek with the soul! Only dietary and alkaline-inducing methods silences it for good. Only bacteria-destroying moves gives you freedom from its tyranny. To conquer your disharmony-creating darkside, you have to give it what it does not harmony. There is nothing like lilting music of the 20th century for use here. But, you must give up the music too. The darkside can take anything that you have dropped your barriers for, in order to accomodate it, and use it to grab hold of your attention. There are two attentions in the body: yours and the darkside's, and they are welded together unless you deliberately separate them. By keeping you focused exclusively on the world and its shenanigans, one's ability to think, analyse and introspect becomes stultified. Going within is boredom for darksiders. For soul people, within is home! To reduce the power of the darkside's attention, one must limit one's focus on the outside world and avoid its grabbing snares. If you keep seeking untrammeled interactions with the external world, the darkside gets life and will find ways to secure greater involvement and self-expression. Each expression boosts the power of the darkside to manifest more of other kinds of expression. The attention must be redirected inwards by searching for knowledge ie reading and introspection. The best weapon against the darkside is knowledge. When you occupy yourself with that, the darkside has no choice but to go along for the ride. Its attention is of no use here, and it gets bored and suppressed. It goes to sleep while soul pursues its own nature's development. Give the darkside what it does not want or like, and starve it from what it likes or wants. This is how you conquer that coloniser. Materialistic living is done by the darkside, and that is the entity which enjoys that...not the soul. Pleasures are enjoyed by the darkside not the soul. The greatest pleasure is sex for the darksiders. The darkside/bacterial combo loves sex because of the transmission of orgasmic energy throughout the darkside and the bacterial colonies within. All the darksiders in a color or tribe can experience it. Sexual pleasure is not felt individually, hence the reason for basing the world on sex and sexual games involving almost everyone on earth. More importantly, sex means contact with, and absorption of bacteria from others' bodies. There's nothing more pleasing to bacterial cells than to have larger colonies.This enhances their power and capabilities. If souls decimate the darkside/bacteria combo within, and feed the body's cells adequately, the bliss that is happiness flows automatically. This is something that regular doses of sexual pleasure mixed with interims of nothing or misery cannot ever beat!



  1. I resonate completely with what you are writing. I was a TI and it has been a hellish nightmare to disconnect from that. EMFs are horrible for the human body. I had to move into a cleaner geographical area. Sometimes I think this is necessary. Thank you for all the information you are putting out. Blessings to you!!!

    1. Wish I could move! Their attack on me has been allround! Judas in the family!